🗓️ July 12, 2025
🎙️ 4 Discord voice notes | ⏱️ 1 hour, 8 minutes, 12 seconds
🧠 Topics: Burnout · IWC drama · Storytelling in wrestling · Truth-telling online
I woke up overdraft.
And still—I created. Still—I talked. Still—I tried to stay rooted.
Because even when I know the algorithm won’t love me back, I show up anyway.
That’s where this Captain’s Log comes from: not from a place of hype, but from the bottom of the burnout cycle, and thinking out loud at the observations lately on the twitter timeline. From choosing thoughtful creation in a space that rewards tribalism, bullying, and meme-able stupidity.
These four voice notes are me documenting what it feels like to exist as a “substance over sensationalism” voice in an IWC that’s allergic to reflection.
🎧 Voice Note 1 – “Do You Act Like This Offline?” (19:36)
“The internet allows you to play a character. And then when you're offline, you're probably not playing that character. So then what is it? You're fake online just to get attention?”
In this first note, I talk about watching grown adults fight online for clout and build fake personas for algorithmic scraps. This week’s flavor: drama between creators who already hashed things out offline, but still weaponize the feud because it drives clicks.
I talk about what content creation actually is—and how faking your whole personality just to get Patreon/Fourthwall subs is becoming the norm. Meanwhile, thoughtful creators get ignored. But I’m not changing my lane for fake love.
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🎧 Voice Note 2 – “Showing Up is Enough” (13:22)
“As long as you keep showing up for whatever it is—that's good enough.”
This one is more personal. I reflect on feeling drained, financially and emotionally. I don’t have the energy to live-tweet 3 wrestling shows at once or react to drama in real time. But I am still making—editing, scripting, planning. That counts.
“I’m not trying to be a millionaire. I just want to be comfortable.”
I’m honest about envy and exhaustion, but also about still wanting to make things better. It’s not about giving up—it’s about honoring your own rhythm.
🎧 Voice Note 3 – “The Algorithm Thrives on Chaos” (21:20)
“They push the most chaotic clip because it brings in the most views... No context, just clickbait.”
This is my deep dive on how platforms are engineered to reward dysfunction. Thoughtfulness doesn’t trend. Nuance gets buried. Engagement comes from outrage—not quality.
“The algorithm isn't gonna care if you're thoughtful. The algorithm isn’t gonna care if you’re nice.”
I talk about how certain creators bait the system with conflict content while others—like me—quietly work on real things with value. But the difference is, I can sleep at night. And that's the win.
🎧 Voice Note 4 – “They Don't Want to Change—They Want to Gatekeep” (13:54)
“The wrestling community is being led by nerds who were picked on and now have a platform and don’t want anyone else to have it.”
This one hits. I unpack the hypocrisy of wrestling Twitter: people gatekeeping the space after being excluded themselves. I explain how folks like Dave Meltzer can spew nonsense weekly without accountability—and still get paid.
“They don’t want to evolve. They want to stay bitter.”
I also pitch better stories for NJPW—like Evil winning the G1, or Tanahashi. Not because I want fantasy booking points, but because I still care about the art of wrestling storytelling, even when it feels like no one else does.
💬 Final Reflection
This log is not a hot take. It’s not a viral moment.
It’s a time capsule of what it’s like to build something real—while broke, overlooked, and exhausted.
I’m not chasing drama. I’m chasing clarity.
Even when no one’s clapping, I keep going. Because this work matters.
“Even if you're not livestreaming 24/7, you're still creating something behind the scenes.”
— Voice Note 2
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💭 If you’re tired of algorithms choosing who gets to matter—I'm right there with you.
If anyone feels the same way, just remember:
You're not alone in your lane. You're just early.
And that lane? Still worth building.
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